fortheSoul

  PC: Erkin Yılmaz When times were tough, I always stood waiting for it to pass. Through all storms I prayed for the light to come, for the rain to go away. So did I pray when there was pain, for the suffering to end, for the misery to end. I wished no harm, but just prayed for it to pass, for light to shine and for the ache to end. It took a while, but each time it did end, in its own form and time, but it did end. Once the calm was back, once the suffering had ended, I felt empty for a while. It was definitely what I prayed for, but the light also brought along the silence. It felt different, it felt strange to feel light and also to deal with freedom. I prayed for her pain to go away, I wished for her nights to be peaceful, I wished for her to smile again. Oh! I just for my grandma to feel whole again. Today, I see her chair empty, my heart aches to see this emptiness. It’s a big puzzle, my mind doesn’t know how to process this absence, but then again, the ...

Lying down under the majestic green soul,  gently being touched by the breeze and tickled by the grass beneath, I look above. I look above at the blue sky, peeping sunlight, passing clouds,  chirping birds and all the mesmerizing shades of life around me. The green of gardens, the blue of oceans, the yellow of sunlight,  the silver of clouds, the white of satin, the red of lips and the black,  the brown and the fair of skin.   Isn't it magical, maybe like a warm-ecstatic spell?   Does it not make you strive blissfully?  Does it not make you feel the beauty in variance?  Does it not make you dance with joy or fall in love? Shades are the glitter, the sparkle and the cherry to life.  Otherwise its all black and white, maybe grey! Look around, feel the vibrance, feel the smell, feel the touch,  feel the warmth, feel the love..  Embrace it all. Brown eyes or bruised eyes, red lips or torn lips..  A golden heart and the rainbow of l...

 I locked myself away from all the screens, all the music, all the support and light, I sat down in the quite corner in my home, in silence and stared at a photograph from my childhood. Time kept passing by, but I didn’t waiver, I kept on staring. Trying to remember each detail, trying to go back to the little me. I was trying so hard, and for so many times until now, that I really wanted for it to work this time.   I really wanted to remember each detail about the little me, about how she looked and smiled, Because I really wanted to be able to see her when I close my eyes. I wanted to be able to visualize her. I wanted to see her in front of me when I close my eyes.   And blessed was I, because that someday was today, yes, I succeeded, I met her, I could see her today. This tiny little human stood in front of me, smiling, unaware all the reality rushing towards her. Unaware of all the not so big things, that will take her away from all her little joys....

 Every sunrise brings new hope, a new chance to start over, a new beginning. We all are bound in our lives to our habits or patterns or old spirals, we often want to start afresh, but are pulled back. It is only natural, this was how life was, this was how your body and mind functioned, this is what each cell of your body knew. New starts are a great chance, all of it have it at our choice but we need to agree that it is tough. It is a hurdle that we need to fight and win over. Don’t get disheartened when your old habit finds its way in, it will take time for it all to fade away. The day you make you mind up is just the first step, but for each cell to now align to this needs time. For this new you to be born, patience and perseverance is what is needed. Whether it be 21 days or 50 days, it is your will to show up everyday and constantly fight the old patterns and build the new that makes the difference. Give yourself time, be patient with yourself, be kind to yourself and ...

  To fly high and reach the sky.. High, so high that the world would seem ant size.. My dreams are big and all I keep telling myself is that: " Believe and you will achieve them". But the path tests me at every step I make.. Whenever my mind took the first step, it felt as if the cosmos conspired for everything around me to pull me back.. That did take a toll on me and also tried to break me somewhere inside, but then that is how you are tested, tested to see if you really need or want this, or maybe just the one last chance to say no before it all happens for you.. It is in that moment when I gathered myself and stood up for myself, stood tall to face it all.. To face all the hurdles and challenges, and to fight them over.. It is in that moment when I knew that: Yes, I need this and that I am open to welcoming this. I think this is what it all means, this is the purpose of the time that tests us, tests us right before we think that it is all falling into place. So my dear,...

The ocean breeze, the slightly warm sand, the gushing waves and the longing, my longing, walked together that night. A lonely walk with myself, on a night when the stars chose to shine brightly, on a night where my soul held my mind, so fragile and so lost. Seeking to be seen, to be held and to be loved. It was the need for love and care and maybe a little desire, that rushed within me. I wanted this for me too, I wanted this from someone else, it felt like on that night I needed it from someone else. So bad, that all that I had within me turned into sorrow, into grief and into pain. We often tend to search for love around us, or at least on that night I did.  I believed to feel what I wanted, I had to get it from someone. Not me but someone. What I forgot that night was that love is an emotion, an emotion so powerful that it can break barriers, move mountains and melt the world away. It can make time stop, make everything stand still and yet feel like a warm breeze on ...

My grandmother's granddaughter, My father’s daughter, My mother’s child, My sister’s partner, My best friend’s bestie, And a stranger to a stranger, I am so many, I am me.   You are more than what you think my love. Yes, you are the Hero of your story, but you also play so many roles in that of others. We walk through so many lives unnoticed and unaware, isn’t it magical? You made someone’s day, inspired someone to be or do something more, you made someone laugh, you motivated someone, you did so much, my love. You don’t know all of this, but trust me you did effect lives. We are all in a journey trying to make it home, trying to do our best and most importantly we are all trying to reach the end. It might be a different struggle you go through, but all of us are in the same hustle. On a day when you feel like giving up or you feel like no one is there next to you, I hope you remember whatever little you did or how you helped someone is pushing them to go on...