The Trail of Footprints and the whisper from God.

The ocean breeze, the slightly warm sand, the gushing waves and the longing, my longing, walked together that night.

A lonely walk with myself, on a night when the stars chose to shine brightly, on a night where my soul held my mind, so fragile and so lost.
Seeking to be seen, to be held and to be loved.

It was the need for love and care and maybe a little desire, that rushed within me. I wanted this for me too, I wanted this from someone else, it felt like on that night I needed it from someone else. So bad, that all that I had within me turned into sorrow, into grief and into pain.
We often tend to search for love around us, or at least on that night I did. 
I believed to feel what I wanted, I had to get it from someone.

Not me but someone.

What I forgot that night was that love is an emotion, an emotion so powerful that it can break barriers, move mountains and melt the world away. It can make time stop, make everything stand still and yet feel like a warm breeze on a cold winter morning.
 
And then I heard a whisper, “Love, my child comes from within, you are so full of it and yet so unaware.”

Oh, how foolish have I been, trying to love him or her or this or that, but love myself! Trying to give all I have and wanting to receive it from someone, so that I feel loved. Why not just pour all that I have on me, for me!

I am whole, I am created by God as a complete being and not a half, and I told myself to stop searching for my lost parts.

There is nothing that is lost, nothing that is incomplete, there is only a lack of awareness. I told myself to start recognizing my love for the self and to be aware!

And in that moment, I stopped, looked around and saw the waves still gushing, the sand still warm, the breeze still ocean-y.
I turned back and to my surprise, I saw my trail of footprints and how beautiful did they look. 

I looked at the moon, shining bright and smiled my smile.
And in that moment, I guess I fell in love. So maybe, you should also look back and fall in love with your journey, look at your footprints and find the sense of pride and love for yourself.

Love yourself.