fortheSoul

  PC: Erkin Yılmaz When times were tough, I always stood waiting for it to pass. Through all storms I prayed for the light to come, for the rain to go away. So did I pray when there was pain, for the suffering to end, for the misery to end. I wished no harm, but just prayed for it to pass, for light to shine and for the ache to end. It took a while, but each time it did end, in its own form and time, but it did end. Once the calm was back, once the suffering had ended, I felt empty for a while. It was definitely what I prayed for, but the light also brought along the silence. It felt different, it felt strange to feel light and also to deal with freedom. I prayed for her pain to go away, I wished for her nights to be peaceful, I wished for her to smile again. Oh! I just for my grandma to feel whole again. Today, I see her chair empty, my heart aches to see this emptiness. It’s a big puzzle, my mind doesn’t know how to process this absence, but then again, the ...

  The Wildflower and the Butterfly. Picture Cr: Google images   In the middle of nowhere, in the chaos of life and amidst all the so many other things I found you, my oasis. You were my oasis in this big world, a safe haven, my abode, my grandma. I believe we were destined to find our way to each other at a point where silently our worlds started getting isolated. We were not lonely, but we started to feel unrelatable to others, with our own fights, our own battles in that moment, no matter how big or small they seem today, those battles meant a lot then. We grew closer naturally and I think that gave us strength to face our battles head on. Your wisdom and my youth are what we lent each other, that was our barter to rely on each other through days or nights that felt endless. We were surely under the same roof ever since I was born, but we were strangers until we did find each other.   You had this shield of strength around you that most couldn’t see th...

  At times when I am anxious, feeling jittery I think of you. I think of you, you who is not yet here, you who hasn’t yet walked into my life, and you who might not walk into my life, who knows. I’m not disheartened or upset by the fact, rather this thought is so powerful that I feel whole!   I think of you, you who I lean upon, you who I unconditionally love. On a hot summer day, you are like the cool breeze that hits me, brings me right back and makes me feel home. You are my shelter, even though I am my home. You are my pillar, whereas I am my foundation. How glued are we together, but still how beautifully can we drift!   I know in me is you, and that bit of you is what I’ll carry to my grave and beyond. To my grave and beyond, I promise shall you go with me, and so many more bits of you’ll.   Bits of the stranger who smiled at me that afternoon, the bits of my mother waking me up for school, the bits of my grandma plating the pudding fo...

Lying down under the majestic green soul,  gently being touched by the breeze and tickled by the grass beneath, I look above. I look above at the blue sky, peeping sunlight, passing clouds,  chirping birds and all the mesmerizing shades of life around me. The green of gardens, the blue of oceans, the yellow of sunlight,  the silver of clouds, the white of satin, the red of lips and the black,  the brown and the fair of skin.   Isn't it magical, maybe like a warm-ecstatic spell?   Does it not make you strive blissfully?  Does it not make you feel the beauty in variance?  Does it not make you dance with joy or fall in love? Shades are the glitter, the sparkle and the cherry to life.  Otherwise its all black and white, maybe grey! Look around, feel the vibrance, feel the smell, feel the touch,  feel the warmth, feel the love..  Embrace it all. Brown eyes or bruised eyes, red lips or torn lips..  A golden heart and the rainbow of l...

 I locked myself away from all the screens, all the music, all the support and light, I sat down in the quite corner in my home, in silence and stared at a photograph from my childhood. Time kept passing by, but I didn’t waiver, I kept on staring. Trying to remember each detail, trying to go back to the little me. I was trying so hard, and for so many times until now, that I really wanted for it to work this time.   I really wanted to remember each detail about the little me, about how she looked and smiled, Because I really wanted to be able to see her when I close my eyes. I wanted to be able to visualize her. I wanted to see her in front of me when I close my eyes.   And blessed was I, because that someday was today, yes, I succeeded, I met her, I could see her today. This tiny little human stood in front of me, smiling, unaware all the reality rushing towards her. Unaware of all the not so big things, that will take her away from all her little joys....

 Every sunrise brings new hope, a new chance to start over, a new beginning. We all are bound in our lives to our habits or patterns or old spirals, we often want to start afresh, but are pulled back. It is only natural, this was how life was, this was how your body and mind functioned, this is what each cell of your body knew. New starts are a great chance, all of it have it at our choice but we need to agree that it is tough. It is a hurdle that we need to fight and win over. Don’t get disheartened when your old habit finds its way in, it will take time for it all to fade away. The day you make you mind up is just the first step, but for each cell to now align to this needs time. For this new you to be born, patience and perseverance is what is needed. Whether it be 21 days or 50 days, it is your will to show up everyday and constantly fight the old patterns and build the new that makes the difference. Give yourself time, be patient with yourself, be kind to yourself and ...

  To fly high and reach the sky.. High, so high that the world would seem ant size.. My dreams are big and all I keep telling myself is that: " Believe and you will achieve them". But the path tests me at every step I make.. Whenever my mind took the first step, it felt as if the cosmos conspired for everything around me to pull me back.. That did take a toll on me and also tried to break me somewhere inside, but then that is how you are tested, tested to see if you really need or want this, or maybe just the one last chance to say no before it all happens for you.. It is in that moment when I gathered myself and stood up for myself, stood tall to face it all.. To face all the hurdles and challenges, and to fight them over.. It is in that moment when I knew that: Yes, I need this and that I am open to welcoming this. I think this is what it all means, this is the purpose of the time that tests us, tests us right before we think that it is all falling into place. So my dear,...

There are thoughts that come and go, you think of many things right, you might have picked them up from something you saw today or heard someone say or read it in a book or so many more such instances. Then there are thoughts instilled by society, thoughts that are running through you since generations, so deep and rooted that they never seem to leave. Or at times they are so deep rooted that it becomes quite difficult to even notice their presence. One such thought I always struggled with was that of – “You don’t have enough time, enough time to achieve, to love, to travel and what not!” Yes, I am pro for - Carpe diem, yes seize the moment, yes live as if it is your last day – but don’t rush. Don’t rush through it all, through the bucket list or to do’s or simply your wants.    Don’t sprint on the sidewalks, enjoy them. Don’t tap your foot when on the metro, don’t stare at the clock for the time to pass. Don’t do that! These are all moments that are happening to you in your “...